Oh, October

It is hard to believe October is already here. While we are really enjoying and taking advantage of the change in weather, I have been dreading this month since Sailee was born because it marks the end of my time with her. In a few short weeks, I will move back into my office, and I have a suspicion I will quickly start feeling like I am taking care of others' children while leaving my own at home. Granted, Sailee will be in my mother's very capable hands, but still I will so miss all the feedings and snuggly times, watching her take in all the sights and sounds around her, watching her move and kick, staring at each other, and talking with her! Sailee has started more recently to really enjoy talking. Most of our conversations are aaahs and ooohs, but the other day she was really excited to tryout her newest word, "Aaah-khoooooo." I am so incredibly enamored of my little precious baby and we have so much fun together. In the coming months, I know she will change so much more, and it is tearing me apart to know I will only have a few short hours with her everyday to be a part of her growing and changing. Going back to work while she is so little might be the hardest thing I will ever have to do. At least it feels that way now.